There are certain children who are told they are too sensitive, and there are certain adults who believe sensitivity is a problem that can be fixed in the way that crooked teeth can be fixed and made straight. And when these two come together you get a fairytale, a kind of story with hopelessness in it.
I believe there is something in these old stories that does what singing does to words. They have transformational capabilities, in the way melody can transform mood.
They can’t transform your actual situation, but they can transform your experience of it. We don’t create a fantasy world to escape reality, we create it to be able to stay. I believe we have always done this, used images to stand and understand what otherwise would be intolerable.
Your birthday star is in the constellation Horologium. It has the name ι (Iota) Horologii in Johann Bayer’sUranometria star catalog. It is called NS 0242-5048 in the NStars database.
It has visual magnitude 5.4 meaning that you could just see this star with the naked eye under the best viewing conditions. It is marked in the center of this star chart, at celestial coordinates (J2000 equinox):
Right ascension 2:42:33.5Declination-50:48:1.1
This star is 56.1 light years away, which means that the light we see from it today set off on its journey at about the same time that you were born. Come back in a month or two and your birthday star may change, as the light from more distant stars reaches Earth.
All these thoughts are tearing me apart and I can’t breath. My chest aches in the morning and my muscles won’t move. I pray that this isn’t happening. Life is too much for me all of the sudden and I cannot cope with this anymore. I try to think of the way I’ve been living for the past five…